Over the last few weeks I had been feeling so tired! I was going to bed at 8pm and sleeping a full 12 hours and then still tired in the morning. I knew something was wrong. I knew my body was lacking something. I was getting rest, I wasn’t overdoing things but yet I still felt drained. Something internally felt off balance.
For me it was anaemia, my blood iron levels weren’t high enough. That meant as a result I felt FATIGUE…..drained. As soon as that iron kicked into my blood stream I started to feel the difference, I felt amazing! It’s so interesting how imbalance can cause such a disturbance to your well-being. It made me think about other imbalances in my life and how they can disturb my well-being and the well-being of my family. I was surprised to see how my tiredness affected the rest of my family. It meant early nights for me, so less time for me and Mel to be together in the evenings. Less time chatting, less time laughing, less time communicating, less time loving and appreciating each other don’t help our marriage! With the kids I just felt like I was waiting for them to get to bed. I was there with them but I wasn’t really there. I felt guilty for not feeling motivated to get up and do things with them. The tiredness affected the whole household. I think sometimes we think our well being only affects us, when really its affects so many people.
I know for me that worry has the ability to cause imbalance in my life. If I allow worry to consume me or take over it affects me physically, mentally, spiritually and it affects the people around me. Worry drains me. Worry robs me of living in the moment. Worry irritates me! I wasn’t created to live in worry. In my life there would be circumstances that would cause worries but the intention has always been for me to live light by giving those worries to God. You see as a Christian, we’re told by God to give our worries to him. I forget that He wants to take as much as He wants to give. But how do you give your worries to him? Even as I’m writing this I can see how this could sound wishy washy.
A few months ago I was reading my Bible and I came across Phillipians 4:6 (MSG) . It says ‘Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the centre of your life’
The idea of allowing petitions and praises SHAPE my worries into prayers really intrigued me. I really felt as if I was being guided how to give my worries to God. I was to allow petitions and praises to SHAPE my worries into prayers. Over this last weekend I’ve seen and heard that works!! I was talking to my mum the other day. The last few months have been the most difficult season she’s been through with discovering dad had cancer and obviously coming to terms with that. A few days ago I asked her how she felt about the future. She told me she wasn’t worried anymore and that she trusted God and she believed no-one could out do God with His goodness in her life. Whatever happened she knew she could trust her God.
As she spoke I heard peace. I heard the transition that had taken place over the last few months from worry to wholeness. I’d been watching my mum over the last few months. Those first few months were not easy but I never saw her give in. She would praise and continue to ask God for healing, for strength, for guidance. In her praise she would sing songs declaring who Jesus was, her loving Father, she would sing about His love for her and from that would flow adoration for God and a trust in Him. I watched and listened to her and dad do this day in day out, even on the tough days. That commitment, that consistency, that leaning in has shaped her worries into prayers that have resulted in wholeness. Recently a neighbour came to visit their home and while she was there she mentioned that she always feels peace in their home whenever she comes over. Mum’s wellbeing and wholeness creates a happy home, a home in which faith, hope and love exists , and despite the circumstances we find ourselves in, there’s rest ❤